Kavalayodam
From Thimiru Pudichavan · 2018
- Lyricist
- Arun Bharathi
- Singer
- Anurag Kulkarni
- Music director
- Vijay Antony
- Details
- Thimiru Pudichavan2018
Lyrics & meaning
| ♫ Tanglish lyrics | ↻ English translation |
|---|---|
| Male | |
| Kavalaiyodum kuzhappathodum | With worry and confusion |
| Irukkiren | I exist |
| En manathil nooru vazhigalodu | With a hundred pains in my heart |
| Nadakkiren | I walk |
| Anaithum naalai mudiyum endru | Thinking everything will end tomorrow |
| Ninaikkiren | I believe |
| Naan thadikki vizhuntha kaayathodu | With the wound from tripping and falling |
| Padukkiren | I lie down |
| Male | |
| Yaaridam solluven | To whom shall I tell? |
| Yaara ini naan nambuven | Whom can I trust anymore? |
| Kadavul mattum kaiyil | If only God into my hands |
| Kidaithaal…kolluven… | Is caught... I will kill Him... |
| Male | |
| Thavikkiren naan thavikkiren | I am struggling, I am struggling |
| Urakkam indri thavikkiren | I am struggling without sleep |
| Seitha thavarai ninaikkiren | Thinking of the mistake I made |
| Naan pasithum unavai verukkiren | Even when hungry, I detest food |
| Male | |
| Thudikkiren naan thudikkiren | I am squirming, I am squirming |
| Nadappathai enni thudikkiren | Thinking of what is happening, I am squirming |
| Enakkullae naan azhugiren | Inside myself I cry |
| Inga veliyilae mattum nadikkiren | Here on the outside, I merely act |
| Male | |
| Kavalaiyodum kuzhappathodum | With worry and confusion |
| Irukkiren | I exist |
| En manathil nooru vazhigalodu | With a hundred pains in my heart |
| Nadakkiren | I walk |
| Male | |
| Neeril kanneeril | In water, in tears |
| Oodum enn odam | My boat runs |
| Naalai ennaagum | What will happen tomorrow? |
| Vazhvae poraattam | Life is a struggle |
| Male | |
| Adakka mudiyavillai | Unable to suppress it |
| Adanga theriyavillai | Not knowing how to submit |
| Irandukkum naduvilae | Between these two |
| Naan thavikkiren | I am struggling |
| Male | |
| Ulagam vilangavillai | The world is incomprehensible |
| Ethavum sariyumillai | Nothing is right either |
| Enakkullae thinamum | Inside myself every day |
| Naan ennai vathaikkiren | I torment myself |
| Veithu sithaikkiren | I destroy and mutilate myself |
| Male | |
| Thavikkiren naan thavikkiren | I am struggling, I am struggling |
| Urakkam indri thavikkiren | I am struggling without sleep |
| Seitha thavarai ninaikkiren | Thinking of the mistake I made |
| Naan pasithum unavai verukkiren | Even when hungry, I detest food |
| Male | |
| Thudikkiren naan thudikkiren | I am squirming, I am squirming |
| Nadappathai enni thudikkiren | Thinking of what is happening, I am squirming |
| Enakkullae naan azhugiren | Inside myself I cry |
| Inga veliyilae mattum nadikkiren | Here on the outside, I merely act |
| Male | |
| Kavalaiyodum kuzhappathodum | With worry and confusion |
| Irukkiren | I exist |
| En manathil nooru vazhigalodu | With a hundred pains in my heart |
| Nadakkiren | I walk |
| Anaithum naalai mudiyum endru | Thinking everything will end tomorrow |
| Ninaikkiren | I believe |
| Naan thadikki vizhuntha kaayathodu | With the wound from tripping and falling |
| Padukkiren | I lie down |
| Male | |
| Yaaridam solluven | To whom shall I tell? |
| Yaara ini naan nambuven | Whom can I trust anymore? |
| Kadavul mattum kaiyil | If only God into my hands |
| Kidaithal kolluven…nnnn | Is caught... I will kill Him... |
கவலையோடும் குழப்பத்தோடும்
இருக்கிறேன்
என் மனதில் நூறு வலிகளோடு
நடக்கிறேன்
அனைத்தும் நாளை முடியும் என்று
நினைக்கிறேன்
நான் தடுக்கி விழுந்த காயத்தோடு
படுக்கிறேன்
With worry and confusion
I exist
With a hundred pains in my heart
I walk
Thinking everything will end tomorrow
I believe
With the wound from tripping and falling
I lie down
யாரிடம் சொல்லுவேன்
யாரை இனி நான் நம்புவேன்
கடவுள் மட்டும் கையில்
கிடைத்தால்....கொல்லுவேன்...
To whom shall I tell?
Whom can I trust anymore?
If only God into my hands
Is caught... I will kill Him...
தவிக்கிறேன் நான் தவிக்கிறேன்
உறக்கம் இன்றி தவிக்கிறேன்
செய்த தவறை நினைக்கிறன்
நான் பசித்தும் உணவை வெறுக்கிறேன்
I am struggling, I am struggling
I am struggling without sleep
Thinking of the mistake I made
Even when hungry, I detest food
துடிக்கிறேன் நான் துடிக்கிறேன்
நடப்பதை எண்ணி துடிக்கிறேன்
எனக்குள்ளே நான் அழுகிறேன்
இங்கே வெளியிலே மட்டும் நடிக்கிறேன்
I am squirming, I am squirming
Thinking of what is happening, I am squirming
Inside myself I cry
Here on the outside, I merely act
கவலையோடும் குழப்பத்தோடும்
இருக்கிறேன்
என் மனதில் நூறு வலிகளோடு
நடக்கிறேன்
With worry and confusion
I exist
With a hundred pains in my heart
I walk
நீரில் கண்ணீரில்
ஓடும் என் ஓடம்
நாளை என்னாகும்
வாழ்வே போராட்டம்
In water, in tears
My boat runs
What will happen tomorrow?
Life is a struggle
அடக்க முடியவில்லை
அடங்க தெரியவில்லை
இரண்டுக்கும் நடுவிலே
நான் தவிக்கிறேன்
Unable to suppress it
Not knowing how to submit
Between these two
I am struggling
உலகம் விளங்கவில்லை
எதுவும் சரியுமில்லை
எனக்குள்ளே தினமும்
நான் என்னை வதைக்கிறேன்
வைத்து சிதைக்கிறேன்
The world is incomprehensible
Nothing is right either
Inside myself every day
I torment myself
I destroy and mutilate myself
தவிக்கிறேன் நான் தவிக்கிறேன்
உறக்கம் இன்றி தவிக்கிறேன்
செய்த தவறை நினைக்கிறன்
நான் பசித்தும் உணவை வெறுக்கிறேன்
I am struggling, I am struggling
I am struggling without sleep
Thinking of the mistake I made
Even when hungry, I detest food
துடிக்கிறேன் நான் துடிக்கிறேன்
நடப்பதை எண்ணி துடிக்கிறேன்
எனக்குள்ளே நான் அழுகிறேன்
இங்கே வெளியிலே மட்டும் நடிக்கிறேன்
I am squirming, I am squirming
Thinking of what is happening, I am squirming
Inside myself I cry
Here on the outside, I merely act
கவலையோடும் குழப்பத்தோடும்
இருக்கிறேன்
என் மனதில் நூறு வலிகளோடு
நடக்கிறேன்
அனைத்தும் நாளை முடியும் என்று
நினைக்கிறேன்
நான் தடுக்கி விழுந்த காயத்தோடு
படுக்கிறேன்
With worry and confusion
I exist
With a hundred pains in my heart
I walk
Thinking everything will end tomorrow
I believe
With the wound from tripping and falling
I lie down
யாரிடம் சொல்லுவேன்
யாரை இனி நான் நம்புவேன்
கடவுள் மட்டும் கையில்
கிடைத்தால்....கொல்லுவேன்...
To whom shall I tell?
Whom can I trust anymore?
If only God into my hands
Is caught... I will kill Him...
Kavalaiyodum kuzhappathodum
With worry and confusion
Irukkiren
I exist
En manathil nooru vazhigalodu
With a hundred pains in my heart
Nadakkiren
I walk
Anaithum naalai mudiyum endru
Thinking everything will end tomorrow
Ninaikkiren
I believe
Naan thadikki vizhuntha kaayathodu
With the wound from tripping and falling
Padukkiren
I lie down
Yaaridam solluven
To whom shall I tell?
Yaara ini naan nambuven
Whom can I trust anymore?
Kadavul mattum kaiyil
If only God into my hands
Kidaithaal…kolluven…
Is caught... I will kill Him...
Thavikkiren naan thavikkiren
I am struggling, I am struggling
Urakkam indri thavikkiren
I am struggling without sleep
Seitha thavarai ninaikkiren
Thinking of the mistake I made
Naan pasithum unavai verukkiren
Even when hungry, I detest food
Thudikkiren naan thudikkiren
I am squirming, I am squirming
Nadappathai enni thudikkiren
Thinking of what is happening, I am squirming
Enakkullae naan azhugiren
Inside myself I cry
Inga veliyilae mattum nadikkiren
Here on the outside, I merely act
Kavalaiyodum kuzhappathodum
With worry and confusion
Irukkiren
I exist
En manathil nooru vazhigalodu
With a hundred pains in my heart
Nadakkiren
I walk
Neeril kanneeril
In water, in tears
Oodum enn odam
My boat runs
Naalai ennaagum
What will happen tomorrow?
Vazhvae poraattam
Life is a struggle
Adakka mudiyavillai
Unable to suppress it
Adanga theriyavillai
Not knowing how to submit
Irandukkum naduvilae
Between these two
Naan thavikkiren
I am struggling
Ulagam vilangavillai
The world is incomprehensible
Ethavum sariyumillai
Nothing is right either
Enakkullae thinamum
Inside myself every day
Naan ennai vathaikkiren
I torment myself
Veithu sithaikkiren
I destroy and mutilate myself
Thavikkiren naan thavikkiren
I am struggling, I am struggling
Urakkam indri thavikkiren
I am struggling without sleep
Seitha thavarai ninaikkiren
Thinking of the mistake I made
Naan pasithum unavai verukkiren
Even when hungry, I detest food
Thudikkiren naan thudikkiren
I am squirming, I am squirming
Nadappathai enni thudikkiren
Thinking of what is happening, I am squirming
Enakkullae naan azhugiren
Inside myself I cry
Inga veliyilae mattum nadikkiren
Here on the outside, I merely act
Kavalaiyodum kuzhappathodum
With worry and confusion
Irukkiren
I exist
En manathil nooru vazhigalodu
With a hundred pains in my heart
Nadakkiren
I walk
Anaithum naalai mudiyum endru
Thinking everything will end tomorrow
Ninaikkiren
I believe
Naan thadikki vizhuntha kaayathodu
With the wound from tripping and falling
Padukkiren
I lie down
Yaaridam solluven
To whom shall I tell?
Yaara ini naan nambuven
Whom can I trust anymore?
Kadavul mattum kaiyil
If only God into my hands
Kidaithal kolluven…nnnn
Is caught... I will kill Him...
Beyond the translation
Song interpretation
This song expresses deep mental agony, regret, and extreme inner turmoil felt by the protagonist. Haunted by past mistakes, insomnia, and an inability to trust anyone, the character feels caught between the inability to control circumstances and the refusal to yield to them. The lyrics portray a painful contrast between internal crying and an external facade of normalcy, escalating to an intense existential anger directed even at God.
Writing craft
Poetic devices
Iyaibu (End Rhyme)
“Irukkiren / Nadakkiren / Ninaikkiren / Padukkiren”
Consistent end rhyming structure using the verbal suffix '-kiren' across consecutive lines to emphasize ongoing suffering.
Uruvagamm (Metaphor)
“Neeril kanneeril / Oodum enn odam”
Comparing the protagonist's life journey to a boat navigating through tears.
Maranu / Contrast
“Enakkullae naan azhugiren / Inga veliyilae mattum nadikkiren”
Highlighting the stark dissonance between the character's internal weeping and outward emotional mask.
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Trivia
Thimiru Pudichavan (2018) stars Vijay Antony, who not only played the lead role of an uncompromising police officer suffering from severe insomnia but also composed the entire soundtrack for the film.
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