Missing Me
From Mahaan · 2021
- Lyricist
- Dhruv Vikram
- Singer
- Dhruv Vikram
- Music director
- Santhosh Narayanan
- Details
- Mahaan2021
Lyrics & meaning
| ♫ Tanglish lyrics | ↻ English translation |
|---|---|
| Male | |
| Vaa vanthamar | Come, sit beside me |
| Kaathu kodu | Give me your ear |
| Nee muradan enbaai | You will call me a brute |
| Male | |
| Adhu en mudhal nilai enben | I will say that is my original state |
| Naan pookkal thuranthavan | I am one who renounced flowers |
| Puzhudhi thindru vandhavan | I am one who came consuming dust |
| Puligal ennai Pusippathillai | Tigers do not consume me |
| Male | |
| Ungal peru azhivai | For your grand destruction |
| Naan varugiren | I am coming |
| Ingu naanae arasan | Here, I alone am the king |
| Thalai thattum asuran | A demon who decapitates |
| Male | |
| Un surukku kayiru | Your noose rope |
| En narambugalaal pinnappattathu | Was woven from my nerves |
| Aano penno sisuvo sirippo | Be it male, female, infant, or laughter |
| Adhanaal enna | What of it? |
| Male | |
| Aramae kollum arakkan naan | I am a monster whose virtue itself kills |
| Un paavangal marappen | I will forget your sins |
| Unnai azhithu marappen | By destroying you, I will forget |
| En imaigal kalavu ponadhu | My eyelids were stolen |
| Male | |
| En iravu azhugaiyai | My nocturnal crying |
| Arakkiyar thaaippaal anaithathu | Was embraced by demonesses' motherly milk |
| En sogam savakkuzhi irandum | Both my grief and grave |
| Thindru uyripithen enai | I consumed and revived myself |
| Naan en aayutham thaanga | As I hold my weapon |
| Thuditha un sathai katrai nalama | Is the clump of your flesh that quivered doing fine? |
| Male | |
| There was once a beast inside me | There was once a beast inside me |
| But he lives here no more | But he lives here no more |
| I am him, he is me | I am him, he is me |
| We are one now | We are one now |
| I see a animal lurking in my shadows | I see an animal lurking in my shadows |
| Male | |
| Don’t ask me why | Don’t ask me why |
| I am him, he is me | I am him, he is me |
| We are one now! | We are one now! |
| Male | |
| Ellam kadanthidum enbaal amma | Mother used to say everything shall pass |
| Sirithiru endrum enbaal mma | Mother used to say to keep smiling always |
| Unmai | True |
| Male | |
| Enai ethirtha thalaigalai kadanthu pogiren | I walk past the heads that opposed me |
| Aval ketta sirippu indru en idhazhil | The smile she asked for is on my lips today |
| Kondravar kanakku ninaivillai | I don't remember the count of those I killed |
| Mannitharulum manamillai | I don't have a heart that forgives |
| Male | |
| Aanma vitru raatchasi ondru vaangi vandhen | I sold my soul and bought a demoness |
| Aval kangal thindru parandhu vittaal | She ate my eyes and flew away |
| En kangal ponadhu iyyo | Oh, my eyes are gone! |
| Naan veesiya vaalaal yaar yaaar | Who all were struck down |
| Sethargalo iyyo haaa haaa | By the sword I swung, oh ha ha! |
| Male | |
| Izhanthadhu maayum kangal | What was lost were perishable eyes |
| Kidaithadhu karanangal | What was gained were reasons |
| Male | |
| Ennai kutram solladhae | Do not blame me |
| En vaalil modhi | Those who collided with my sword |
| Adhai kaayamura seithavargalai | And wounded it |
| Thandippayaaga | Will you punish them? |
| Thandippayaaga | Will you punish them? |
| Yaarumillaiya iyyo | Is nobody there, oh no? |
| Ippodhu yaaru | Who is it now? |
| Arakkan | Monster |
| Ippodhu yaaru | Who is it now? |
| Arakkan | Monster |
| Male | |
| There was once a beast inside me | There was once a beast inside me |
| But he lives here no more | But he lives here no more |
| I am him, he is me | I am him, he is me |
| We are one now | We are one now |
| Male | |
| I see a animal lurking in my shadows | I see an animal lurking in my shadows |
| don’t ask me why | Don’t ask me why |
| I am him, he is me | I am him, he is me |
| We are one now | We are one now |
| Male | |
| Varugiren | I am coming |
| En therkaalil un uyirudan | With your life under my chariot wheel |
| En thottaavil un peyarudan | With your name on my bullet |
| Male | |
| Un vidhi en sadhi | Your fate is my plot |
| En ganam un ranam | My weight is your wound |
| Ondru irandu moondru naangu | One, two, three, four |
| Nisapdham | Silence |
வா வந்தமர் ..
காது கொடு
நீ முரடன் என்பாய்
Come, sit beside me
Give me your ear
You will call me a brute
அது என் முதல் நிலை என்பேன்
நான் பூக்கள் துறந்தவன்
புழுதி தின்று வந்தவன்
புலிகள் என்னை புசிப்பதில்லை
I will say that is my original state
I am one who renounced flowers
I am one who came consuming dust
Tigers do not consume me
உங்கள் பெருஆழிவாய்
நான் வருகிறேன்
இங்கு நானே அரசன்
தலை தட்டும் அசுரன்
For your grand destruction
I am coming
Here, I alone am the king
A demon who decapitates
உன் சுருக்குக் கயிறு
என் நரம்புகளால் பிண்ணப்பட்டது
ஆணோ பெண்ணோ சிசுவோ சிரிப்போ..
அதனால் என்ன
Your noose rope
Was woven from my nerves
Be it male, female, infant, or laughter
What of it?
அறமே கொல்லும் அரக்கன் நான்
உன் பாவங்கள் மறப்பேன்
உன்னை அழித்து மறப்பேன்
என் இமைகள் களவு போனது
I am a monster whose virtue itself kills
I will forget your sins
By destroying you, I will forget
My eyelids were stolen
என் இரவு அழுகையை
அரக்கியர் தாய்ப்பால் அணைத்தது
என் சோகம் சவக்குழி இரண்டும் தின்று உயிர்ப்பித்தேன் எனை
நான் என் ஆயுதம் தாங்க
துடித்த உன் சதைக் கற்றை நலமா ?
My nocturnal crying
Was embraced by demonesses' motherly milk
Both my grief and grave
I consumed and revived myself
As I hold my weapon
Is the clump of your flesh that quivered doing fine?
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see a animal lurking in my shadows
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see an animal lurking in my shadows
Don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now!
Don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now!
எல்லாம் கடந்திடும் என்பாள் அம்மா
சிரித்திரு என்றும் என்பாள் அம்மா
உண்மை..
Mother used to say everything shall pass
Mother used to say to keep smiling always
True
எனை எதிர்த்த தலைகளை கடந்து போகிறன்
அவள் கேட்ட சிரிப்பு இன்று என் இதழில்
கொன்றவர் கணக்கு நினைவில்லை
மன்னித்தருளும் மனமில்லை
I walk past the heads that opposed me
The smile she asked for is on my lips today
I don't remember the count of those I killed
I don't have a heart that forgives
ஆன்மா விற்று ராட்சசி ஒன்று வாங்கி வந்தேன்
அவள் கண்கள் தின்று பறந்து விட்டாள்
என் கண்கள் போனது அய்யோ
நான் வீசிய வாளால் யார் யார்
செத்தார்களோ அய்யோ .. ஹா ஹா
I sold my soul and bought a demoness
She ate my eyes and flew away
Oh, my eyes are gone!
Who all were struck down
By the sword I swung, oh ha ha!
இழந்தது மாயும் கண்கள்
கிடைத்தது காரணங்கள்
What was lost were perishable eyes
What was gained were reasons
என்னை குற்றம் சொல்லாதே
என் வாளில் மோதி, அதைக் காயமுற செய்தவர்களை
தண்டிப்பாயாக !!
Do not blame me
Those who collided with my sword
And wounded it
Will you punish them?
Will you punish them?
Is nobody there, oh no?
Who is it now?
Monster
Who is it now?
Monster
தண்டிப்பாயாக.. யாருமில்லையா .. அய்யோ
இப்போது யாரு
அரக்கன்??
இப்போது யாரு
அரக்கன்?
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see an animal lurking in my shadows
Don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see a animal lurking in my shadows
don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I am coming
With your life under my chariot wheel
With your name on my bullet
வருகிறேன்
என் தேர்க்காலில் உன் உயிருடன்
என் தோட்டாவில் உன் பெயருடன்
Your fate is my plot
My weight is your wound
One, two, three, four
Silence
உன் விதி.. என் சதி
என் கணம் .. உன் ரணம்
ஒன்று .. இரண்டு .. மூன் .. நான்கு
நிசப்தம்.
Vaa vanthamar
Come, sit beside me
Kaathu kodu
Give me your ear
Nee muradan enbaai
You will call me a brute
Adhu en mudhal nilai enben
I will say that is my original state
Naan pookkal thuranthavan
I am one who renounced flowers
Puzhudhi thindru vandhavan
I am one who came consuming dust
Puligal ennai Pusippathillai
Tigers do not consume me
Ungal peru azhivai
For your grand destruction
Naan varugiren
I am coming
Ingu naanae arasan
Here, I alone am the king
Thalai thattum asuran
A demon who decapitates
Un surukku kayiru
Your noose rope
En narambugalaal pinnappattathu
Was woven from my nerves
Aano penno sisuvo sirippo
Be it male, female, infant, or laughter
Adhanaal enna
What of it?
Aramae kollum arakkan naan
I am a monster whose virtue itself kills
Un paavangal marappen
I will forget your sins
Unnai azhithu marappen
By destroying you, I will forget
En imaigal kalavu ponadhu
My eyelids were stolen
En iravu azhugaiyai
My nocturnal crying
Arakkiyar thaaippaal anaithathu
Was embraced by demonesses' motherly milk
En sogam savakkuzhi irandum
Both my grief and grave
Thindru uyripithen enai
I consumed and revived myself
Naan en aayutham thaanga
As I hold my weapon
Thuditha un sathai katrai nalama
Is the clump of your flesh that quivered doing fine?
There was once a beast inside me
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
I am him, he is me
We are one now
We are one now
I see a animal lurking in my shadows
I see an animal lurking in my shadows
Don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
I am him, he is me
We are one now!
We are one now!
Ellam kadanthidum enbaal amma
Mother used to say everything shall pass
Sirithiru endrum enbaal mma
Mother used to say to keep smiling always
Unmai
True
Enai ethirtha thalaigalai kadanthu pogiren
I walk past the heads that opposed me
Aval ketta sirippu indru en idhazhil
The smile she asked for is on my lips today
Kondravar kanakku ninaivillai
I don't remember the count of those I killed
Mannitharulum manamillai
I don't have a heart that forgives
Aanma vitru raatchasi ondru vaangi vandhen
I sold my soul and bought a demoness
Aval kangal thindru parandhu vittaal
She ate my eyes and flew away
En kangal ponadhu iyyo
Oh, my eyes are gone!
Naan veesiya vaalaal yaar yaaar
Who all were struck down
Sethargalo iyyo haaa haaa
By the sword I swung, oh ha ha!
Izhanthadhu maayum kangal
What was lost were perishable eyes
Kidaithadhu karanangal
What was gained were reasons
Ennai kutram solladhae
Do not blame me
En vaalil modhi
Those who collided with my sword
Adhai kaayamura seithavargalai
And wounded it
Thandippayaaga
Will you punish them?
Thandippayaaga
Will you punish them?
Yaarumillaiya iyyo
Is nobody there, oh no?
Ippodhu yaaru
Who is it now?
Arakkan
Monster
Ippodhu yaaru
Who is it now?
Arakkan
Monster
There was once a beast inside me
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
I am him, he is me
We are one now
We are one now
I see a animal lurking in my shadows
I see an animal lurking in my shadows
don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
I am him, he is me
We are one now
We are one now
Varugiren
I am coming
En therkaalil un uyirudan
With your life under my chariot wheel
En thottaavil un peyarudan
With your name on my bullet
Un vidhi en sadhi
Your fate is my plot
En ganam un ranam
My weight is your wound
Ondru irandu moondru naangu
One, two, three, four
Nisapdham
Silence
Beyond the translation
Song interpretation
This dark and aggressive hip-hop/spoken-word track from the film Mahaan (2022) portrays the chaotic inner psychology and vengeful transformation of Dharani (Dadha). Raised in extreme trauma and grief, the character discards traditional notions of virtue and morality, embracing his violent nature as an 'arakkan' (monster). He merges completely with the inner beast that once haunted him, viewing his wrath as an unstoppable, inevitable force of retribution.
Writing craft
Poetic devices
Metaphor
“Aramae kollum arakkan naan”
Compares the speaker to an 'arakkan' (demon) driven by destructive righteousness.
Visceral Imagery
“Un surukku kayiru En narambugalaal pinnappattathu”
Uses vivid imagery of body parts and physical distress to portray terrifying vengeance.
Paradox / Dual Identity
“I am him, he is me We are one now”
Illustrates the complete fusion of his human self and the internal monstrous persona.
Irony
“Aval ketta sirippu indru en idhazhil”
Distorts his mother's loving advice to smile into a sadistic smile worn while killing enemies.
Rhyme / Parallelism (Iyaibu)
“En therkaalil un uyirudan / En thottaavil un peyarudan”
Matching end sounds ('uyirudan' / 'peyarudan') creating a rhythmic, threatening flow.
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Trivia
Written and performed by Dhruv Vikram, this track serves as the intense character theme for Dharani in Karthik Subbaraj's action drama 'Mahaan' (2022). Santhosh Narayanan's composition blends experimental trap beats with raw spoken-word monologue to reflect the character's unhinged mindset.
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