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Lyrics & meaning

Missing Me

From Mahaan · 2021

Lyricist
Dhruv Vikram
Singer
Dhruv Vikram
Music director
Santhosh Narayanan
Movie name
Mahaan
Movie release year
2021
Lyrics added on
7 Jan 2022

Lyrics & meaning

♫ Tanglish lyrics
↻ English translation
Vaa vanthamar
Kaathu kodu
Nee muradan enbaai
Adhu en mudhal nilai enben
Naan pookkal thuranthavan
Puzhudhi thindru vandhavan
Puligal ennai Pusippathillai
Ungal peru azhivai
Naan varugiren
Ingu naanae arasan
Thalai thattum asuran
Un surukku kayiru
En narambugalaal pinnappattathu
Aano penno sisuvo sirippo
Adhanaal enna
Aramae kollum arakkan naan
Un paavangal marappen
Unnai azhithu marappen
En imaigal kalavu ponadhu
En iravu azhugaiyai
Arakkiyar thaaippaal anaithathu
En sogam savakkuzhi irandum
Thindru uyripithen enai
Naan en aayutham thaanga
Thuditha un sathai katrai nalama
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see a animal lurking in my shadows
Don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now!
Ellam kadanthidum enbaal amma
Sirithiru endrum enbaal mma
Unmai
Enai ethirtha thalaigalai kadanthu pogiren
Aval ketta sirippu indru en idhazhil
Kondravar kanakku ninaivillai
Mannitharulum manamillai
Aanma vitru raatchasi ondru vaangi vandhen
Aval kangal thindru parandhu vittaal
En kangal ponadhu iyyo
Naan veesiya vaalaal yaar yaaar
Sethargalo iyyo haaa haaa
Izhanthadhu maayum kangal
Kidaithadhu karanangal
Ennai kutram solladhae
En vaalil modhi
Adhai kaayamura seithavargalai
Thandippayaaga
Thandippayaaga
Yaarumillaiya iyyo
Ippodhu yaaru
Arakkan
Ippodhu yaaru
Arakkan
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see a animal lurking in my shadows
don’t ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now
Varugiren
En therkaalil un uyirudan
En thottaavil un peyarudan
Un vidhi en sadhi
En ganam un ranam
Ondru irandu moondru naangu
Nisapdham
Come, sit with me
Listen to me
You will call me a brute
I will say that is just my first stage
I am one who gave up gentleness
I rose eating the dust
Tigers do not prey on me
To bring about your great destruction,
I am coming
Here, I alone am the king
An Asura (demon) who beheads enemies
The noose around your neck
is woven from my own veins
Man, woman, baby, or laughter—
what does it matter?
I am the demon who slays righteousness itself
I will forget your sins,
only after destroying you will I forget them
My eyelids were stolen away
My crying in the night
was silenced by a demoness's milk
Devouring both my grief
and my grave, I brought myself back to life
When I swung my weapon,
how is that writhing bundle of your flesh doing?
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see an animal lurking in my shadows
Don't ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now!
"Everything will pass," mother used to say
"Keep smiling always," mother used to say
True
I walk past the heads of those who stood against me
The smile she asked for is on my lips today
I don't remember the count of those I've killed
I don't have the heart to forgive and spare
I sold my soul and brought home a demoness
She ate my eyes and flew away
My eyes are gone, alas!
By the sword I swung, who all
have died, alas, ha ha!
What was lost were mortal eyes,
what was gained were inner senses
Do not blame me
For striking my sword
and wounding it,
punish them!
Punish them!
Is nobody there? Alas!
Who is it now?
The demon
Who is it now?
The demon
There was once a beast inside me
But he lives here no more
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I see an animal lurking in my shadows
Don't ask me why
I am him, he is me
We are one now
I am coming
with your life under my chariot wheels,
with your name written on my bullet
Your fate is my conspiracy
My single moment is your bleeding wound
One, two, three, four
Silence
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Beyond the translation

Overall song meaning

This dark and aggressive hip-hop/spoken-word track from the film Mahaan (2022) portrays the chaotic inner psychology and vengeful transformation of Dharani (Dadha). Raised in extreme trauma and grief, the character discards traditional notions of virtue and morality, embracing his violent nature as an 'arakkan' (monster). He merges completely with the inner beast that once haunted him, viewing his wrath as an unstoppable, inevitable force of retribution.

Writing craft

Poetic devices

Metaphor

Aramae kollum arakkan naan

Compares the speaker to an 'arakkan' (demon) driven by destructive righteousness.

Visceral Imagery

Un surukku kayiru En narambugalaal pinnappattathu

Uses vivid imagery of body parts and physical distress to portray terrifying vengeance.

Paradox / Dual Identity

I am him, he is me We are one now

Illustrates the complete fusion of his human self and the internal monstrous persona.

Irony

Aval ketta sirippu indru en idhazhil

Distorts his mother's loving advice to smile into a sadistic smile worn while killing enemies.

Rhyme / Parallelism (Iyaibu)

En therkaalil un uyirudan / En thottaavil un peyarudan

Matching end sounds ('uyirudan' / 'peyarudan') creating a rhythmic, threatening flow.

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Trivia

Written and performed by Dhruv Vikram, this track serves as the intense character theme for Dharani in Karthik Subbaraj's action drama 'Mahaan' (2022). Santhosh Narayanan's composition blends experimental trap beats with raw spoken-word monologue to reflect the character's unhinged mindset.

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